Wednesday, December 1, 2010

let's recap.

  1. i am alive.
  2. following a quite logical progression, this means that there is life after practicum.
  3. some of my college friends who are a semester or so behind me in the teaching program (and therefore have practicum coming up) may be interested in this fact. (ahem. understatement.)
  4. since said friends do not read my blog, this is of absolutely no use to them.
  5. let's get on to you all who do so kindly read my blog. ;)
  6. i missed you.
  7. seven is important. i can think of nothing worthy to say.
  8. but you should know that, as someone told me yesterday, "emily is back!" then she looked at me and nodded again and smiled. "you're back."
  9. i have my last two classes this afternoon/evening.
  10. then only one test and one reflective paper are left to complete.
  11. easy peasy. 
  12. not like the hefty practicum portfolio i turned in yesterday morning.
  13. i waved goodbye to the 2" thick binder after leaving it on my practicum supervisor's porch. 
  14. and cried absolutely no tears.
  15. do you know how to stay awake on the road at night?
  16. i thought singing along to music was good.
  17. but singing a capella is better.
  18. especially when you are in the car by yourself.
  19. i'm not sure i've ever sung quite that well before. 
  20. it was fun.
  21. sorry. that was random. back to the recap.
  22. i can't believe i'm done! it feels anticlimactic. 
  23. as in...going from dreading, to drowning, to done.
  24. (no. that's just dramatic. i promise i'm not like this in person.)
  25. anyway. 
  26. rough transition.
  27. i found myself wishing this morning that i had kept a better journal of the progression of practicum.
  28. even just a recap for myself at the end of each week: this is what i did, this was the best thing, this was the worst thing, this is my goal for next week.
  29. because i have very little recollection of when or how i went from observing/assisting in the classroom to full out teaching and involvement.
  30. it's like it just happened
  31. and i know that's not true.
  32. but it did happen.
  33. completely by God's grace.
  34. i am so grateful.
  35. and for student teaching, i will be sure to write those weekly notes.
  36. because i want to remember.
  37. this work that He is doing.
  38. has done.
  39. and the life that He lives, in me.
  40. oh yes. i am alive. but it is not i who live.
p.s. once i get done celebrating over here by baking and sewing and crafting and...making my bed...i have a mini celebration for you all. with a present. stay tuned.


    1. Yay, emily's alive! (sorry, I couldn't resist. :) I'm sure my blog friends think I have fallen off the face of the earth as well. :)

      Happy with you that the semester is almost over and for all the things God is doing and has done. I know exactly what you mean about wishing you had kept a better journal of practicum. I think I wrote maybe 2 entries about my clinicals this past spring and like you, have very little recollection of how suddenly (it seemed) went from observing/helping to doing therapy sessions totally on my own. It so was not me, but the One who lives in me!

      Thanks for sharing, friend. Glad to hear. love you! xoxo

    2. "by faith"...isn't it funny how we can't see the growth during the hard bits until the recap? you ARE back. hooray!

      love you. xo annie