it's odd having my "spring break" two weeks before the end of the semester instead of in the middle. because i've been working in the county school system to complete my student teaching, i take my break with them rather than with my college. that means now. this week that has flown past.

next week will fly, too, and then i will be done - left to wait seven more days until the ceremony when it will be official.

it's all a blur. (ok, the assignments that i've been plowing through this week and the lists of things to turn in for my teaching license and the folders holding my job applications? not so much a blur. more like a nice looong flight of stairs for me to climb. in a blur.)

i'm marking this time. it's here. i've been sitting so long in the "almost there," the "the end is in sight," and the "just do the next thing and don't worry about all the dozens of things that come after that." and now. now there are only about three things.

in about two weeks i will leave for vacation after walking across that stage, and i will blissfully forget all this work and the lists and...everything, and so i am marking it now.

i am so close i can smell it. and that's amazing, if a little blurry.

from my camera.

(there is a new camera in the mail. i've been waiting to spend my birthday money...and finally couldn't resist even though it isn't a dslr.)

blue-m.

(the title has nothing to do with my mood...unless you count a certain level of punchy-ness. i simply couldn't resist.)

a story of indeterminate conclusion.

two weeks (and two days) ago, i delivered my first job application to a major Christian school in town. yes, it's that time peeps - five weeks until graduation. it's craziness.

anyway. the school i applied to last week wasn't one i had originally researched and planned as an option. it was a spontaneous thing. i heard about an opening for a prek teacher, and i figured it was well worth a try.

it felt like a God thing. so outside of my plans, my view.

exactly two weeks ago, i got called by the school principal to schedule an interview. that interview was today. that interview went seamlessly.

basically, i am their top pick for the job, but they can't give it to me until enough children are enrolled for next year. (that enrollment is pretty much just a matter of time.)

so, i kind of sort of have a job for next year. the thing is...the salary really stinks. it's just short of what would be enough for me to stretch into an independent lifestyle. (also known as: i couldn't rent an apartment on this salary. it's just not that feasible - at least not without strings attached.)

and so i chuckle at God because He's so unpredictable, and i breathe some deep breaths and consider changing my picture of what next year looks like, and i leave myself open to the possibilities. i don't know what will happen yet - if i'll take this "job-to-be" or compare it to others or what.

but i'm trusting. that counts for something. He gives the desires of my heart, even when He has to give me the desire before He can fulfill it.

that's my story for tonight. to definitely be continued. (and to all you who prayed for the interview - many thanks. :) and much love.)

bloom some more.

bloom.